Surrendering My Sons

20 Dec

Monday as I dropped the boys off to school I tried to hard 
not to imagine that the worst could happen. 

Even though I know it can. 

I’ve seen the faces on the television. 
I’ve heard the cries of the children and teachers who experienced the nightmare 
and the cries of the families who have lost dear ones.

I have wept over and over again since the unfathomable news broke on Friday. I sat that day watching the tragedy unfold and lifting up prayers without words. The only word that could come out of my mouth was “Jesus…” knowing that the Holy Spirit would have to speak the rest for me. 

I began to count down the minutes until my sons would come home from school and resisted the urge to pick them up early. Deep down in my momma-heart I just needed to have them close…hug them tight…kiss their cheeks. I needed to look at them and say how much I love them.

I was once again reminded that I surrender my sons every day. Not to the world, but to Him. Each day asking Him to invade their space and permeate their world. Knowing that He loves them and cares for them even more than I do. That He desires spectacular lives and has big plans for them even more than I do. 

In that surrender I lift my hands up and up, physically offering them to Him…these sons of mine. Trusting. Believing. Hoping. Oh my heart. Some days it is harder than others. The surrender. Monday was one of those days.

This I declare about the Lord:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
    he is my God, and I trust him.

Psalm 91:2

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13 Responses to “Surrendering My Sons”

  1. Bernadette Veenstra December 20, 2012 at 1:41 pm #

    Surrender-physically lifting your hands up to the Lord. I do this often-sometimes over and over on the same issue.

  2. WhatJeanLikes December 20, 2012 at 2:07 pm #

    It's so scary sending our precious children out into this fallen and evil world. I love this post. I love how you talk about surrendering your sons to Him, to the Lord God. It's so important to do that every day and to let the kids know how important it is they surrender themselves to Him as well. I have my son pray the full armor of God on him every morning. Another wonderful post Wendy!!I hope you're having a great week my dear! Thank you so much for linking up to last week's Aloha Friday Blog Hop!! I'm following you. If you have time, we'd love to have you come and link up to the Aloha Friday Blog Hop if you haven't already! We are hosting a great giveaway too which is a wonderful opportunity to give some extra exposure to you lovely blog. Come and link up, enter the giveaway and celebrate the coming weekend with us! Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!! Aloha, Jean {What Jean Likes}

  3. Wendy December 20, 2012 at 2:10 pm #

    Oh me too sister. There is something about actually lifting your hands. In praise and in surrender as well. Love and hugs!

  4. Jennifer Peterson December 20, 2012 at 2:33 pm #

    Aww I know what you mean. Perfectly said!! Merry Christmas and have a wonderful New Year

  5. Wendy December 20, 2012 at 2:46 pm #

    LOVE that you pray the armor with your son each day! There is such power in that friend! Will definitely be joining you at the hop! Love connecting with you there each week. Blessed Christmas to you and your family Jean!

  6. Wendy December 20, 2012 at 2:47 pm #

    Thanks so much friend! Blessed Christmas to you and your family Jennifer!

  7. Rosilind Jukic December 20, 2012 at 8:26 pm #

    I honestly cannot imagine how hard this must have been for you. May God continue to protect your children and give you His peace.

  8. Marci Smith December 20, 2012 at 9:45 pm #

    Written so beautifully. My heart is still so heavy for everyone affected by this tragedy. Like you, I choose to trust Jesus. It can be difficult to let my children out of my protection. I have to remind myself that they never leave His. Much love to you. May you enjoy Christmas with your precious babies. Xoxo

  9. Kath December 21, 2012 at 12:50 pm #

    There is so much hope in not clinging but giving your sons to the God who loves them immensely. Such a hard time to be brave about it, isn't it?

  10. Wendy December 21, 2012 at 1:04 pm #

    Thank you so much friend! Blessed Christmas to you!

  11. Wendy December 21, 2012 at 1:05 pm #

    Thank you so much Marci. Sending love and hugs your way today. Blessed Christmas to you and your family!

  12. Wendy December 21, 2012 at 1:06 pm #

    Oh yes it is hard to be brave in not holding them tight. Most times it's done on my knees. Blessings friend!

  13. Amanda December 27, 2012 at 2:26 am #

    Psalm 91 is one of my FAVORITE passages, and such an encouragement to me!

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