I Did It Scared

18 Oct

This is the promise that I have been holding on to for the past few weeks as I have been preparing to lead a Bible study for moms at our church.

One of the fears I have been struggling with is speaking in public. I am talking butterflies the size of cows even thinking about it let alone actually doing it. When my mentor asked me to lead, I thought of a million reasons to give her for why I should not do it and then heard a small voice coming from deep inside that said, “yes.” 
And I immediately thought to myself, “You have just lost your mind.”

So over the past weeks of preparation I looked up every Bible verse that said “do not fear” in every translation. I thought if I could just get rid of the fear…

But the reality for me was that I just had to do it scared. 
I had to turn it over to Him and say that this is beyond me and I needed Him. The fear didn’t go away. I stood on Tuesday morning in front of a group of women and taught (flipboard, notecards, markers, and all). My heart was beating a mile a minute the whole time and the last thing I prayed before I began was “I need You Lord. Please…”

When I was done I sat down and let out a huge sigh. 
All I kept saying in my head over and over again was “Thank you Lord.”

Here is a little of what I shared…

In order to learn how to be a better mom to our children, we need to learn more about how our Father parents us. What better way to begin than
In the beginning…

God our Father is the Creator of everything. At the very beginning of Genesis we hear how everything came to be. From light to darkness to stars and oceans. At the end of each day, God looked over everything He had made and said it was good. But something changed after He created human beings in His image. God looked over ALL He had made and said it was VERY good.

That ALL is you. You are His creation and you are VERY good in His eyes.

Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
Psalm 139:14
There are so many times as moms that we don’t really feel so marvelous. Maybe it’s a bad hair day. Maybe it’s a day that we don’t get everything done on our to-do list. Maybe we are short in patience with our kids.
But how we feel isn’t the truth.
The truth in His Word says that we are marvelously 
made in His image and we are very good in His eyes.

That truth isn’t just for us though.
It is also true about our children.
There are some days that it is a challenge to remember that they too are very good. (You know…one of those days where there is constant bickering.)
But their behavior doesn’t define them.
God does.
They too are marvelously made.

When we focus on the positive, the negative is harder to see.

So for the next week I want to challenge you to write down 
5 things that you find marvelous about your children.

40 Responses to “I Did It Scared”

  1. Mary Beth October 18, 2012 at 4:12 am #

    I know you did a wonderful job. What a blessing you are to those of us fortunate enough to have connected with you.

  2. Life as a Bird October 18, 2012 at 4:21 am #

    wow what a great message. I'm glad everything went smoothly. I have a hard time speaking in front of people especially when teaching at church. Thanks for this post!You are amazing.

  3. Britt October 18, 2012 at 4:27 am #

    I get sooo scared infront of people too, so I can totally relate. I'm so glad that you chose to lead the Bible study. I'm sure it was a scary thing for you, but I know that you made a great choice and you did a great job too!!! : ) you are such an inspiration!!!

  4. Gin October 18, 2012 at 4:29 am #

    I would like to have heard you teach.Isn't it wonderful how God is greater than all our fears? (Found your post at the Life in Bloom link party)Blessings, Gin

  5. Nikki @ Simplystriving October 18, 2012 at 4:37 am #

    My heart is out of my chest, delighting in Him in you! Oh what God can do through you, friend! Oh my…so very proud of you. thank you for letting Him use you to reach another.

  6. Barbara October 18, 2012 at 10:18 am #

    Love this!

  7. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 10:40 am #

    Thanks so much MB! Doing it Monday night with Band of Sisters surely helped. I am so thankful for you. Blessings!

  8. Bernadette Veenstra October 18, 2012 at 11:41 am #

    2 great challenges…do it when scared, and 5 marvelous things. I will do it.

  9. OneMommy October 18, 2012 at 12:53 pm #

    What a beautiful post! And a wonderful challenge. I am definitely in!Would love you to link this up with us this week!

  10. Marci Smith October 18, 2012 at 1:02 pm #

    Bless you for stepping out in fear and doing it anyway. God has a big smile on His face, I'm certain. 😉

  11. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 1:30 pm #

    Thanks so much! Really HE is amazing! I am just so thankful for the opportunity to be used by Him. Blessings friend!

  12. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 1:32 pm #

    Thanks so much Britt! It is such a blessing to spend time with these incredible women each week. Have a wonderful day friend!

  13. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 1:36 pm #

    It is wonderful Gin. So grateful that despite my fears He can use me. Blessings!

  14. Jennifer Camp October 18, 2012 at 5:06 pm #

    Oh, I wish I were in the room! How beautiful how you lean on Him! And I love what He pours out through you here–the invitation to remember how He sees us, the reality of Him creating us and speaking we are "very good." Yes! Bless you, sweet sister!

  15. Christine Wright October 18, 2012 at 5:34 pm #

    How awesome! I can so relate. I cannot stand to be in pictures much less to speak…so to think God has called such a chicken as me to do so is unbelievable. Truly. I guess He really does choose those who (whom? Never sure which one) He can show His mighty power through.I love your obedience to His call!!! Wow!

  16. Paula Barnett October 18, 2012 at 6:15 pm #

    Such a wonderful exercise, Wendy. We cannot see enough good/God in everyone! Everything! Proud of you for answering this call. Here's to the glory of God pouring forth through you with ease & grace. Blessings flow: for all!

  17. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 8:03 pm #

    I just keep thinking…I know He is going to make much of Himself through this. I just know it. Thank you my sweet friend. Love you much.

  18. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 8:03 pm #

    Thanks Barbara! Blessings!

  19. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 8:03 pm #

    Love you sister! Blessings!

  20. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 8:06 pm #

    Thank you so much for your sweet words and the invitation! Blessings!

  21. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 8:06 pm #

    Oh sometimes that first step can be a doozy Marci! Blessings friend!

  22. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 8:08 pm #

    Thank you Jennifer. I can't even begin to tell you what an encouragement your words are for me today and to know that you have been praying for me. You are such a blessing. Much love my friend.

  23. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 8:09 pm #

    Thanks so much Christine! I am just so blessed to be used by Him in any way possible. Blessings friend!

  24. Wendy October 18, 2012 at 8:14 pm #

    Thanks so much Paula! My prayer is that He is glorified through my weakness showing His strength. Blessings!

  25. Jennifer Schwickerath October 18, 2012 at 8:35 pm #

    So proud of you! Be blessed:)

  26. roseann graham October 18, 2012 at 9:10 pm #

    You ROCK! 🙂

  27. Wendy October 19, 2012 at 2:05 am #

    Thanks so much Jennifer! Blessings!

  28. Wendy October 19, 2012 at 2:06 am #

    No…YOU ROCK! 🙂

  29. Lori October 19, 2012 at 4:04 pm #

    Wendy, read this and wanted to reach through the screen and give you a great big {hug}!! What a wonderful leap of faith you took, and the message was great! I'm sure those moms were very blessed!! Great job!!

  30. Jen Collado October 20, 2012 at 1:47 am #

    Hi!Your post is a great motivator on a sick day. I am reminded that I have nothing to worry about because God created me as a beautiful being and He will always be with me to guide and take care of me.I found your blog on the blog hop. I'm a new follower! :)JenRushing for Bagels

  31. Wendy October 20, 2012 at 5:07 am #

    Oh Lori how wonderful that hug would be! Thank you so much for your encouraging words! Blessings!

  32. Wendy October 20, 2012 at 5:08 am #

    So sorry you aren't feel well Jen. Praying you feel better soon. Thank you for following and I am looking forward to getting to know you! Blessings!

  33. aly7 October 20, 2012 at 4:40 pm #

    Aw how awesome! I used to get really nervous when I was speaking in public, too. One of my teachers in high school actually made us do it so often, that I ended up getting used to it and now it's not a problem at all. 😉 Found you through the I Love my Post bloghop! wonderlandbeautyblog.blogspot.com

  34. rachturner November 1, 2012 at 1:55 pm #

    Congrats on overcoming one of your fears!! When your heart is in the right place, there is no stopping what God can do through you.

  35. Liz November 1, 2012 at 2:02 pm #

    Visiting from Always Alleluia – and what a great point, doing it scared. Because if the fear goes away, I may start to think I don't need Him. Great thoughts!

  36. Jennifer Schwickerath November 2, 2012 at 12:20 am #

    In order to learn how to be a better mom to our children, we need to learn more about how our Father parents us. OH.MY.GOOD.WORD. Be blessed:)

  37. Wendy November 3, 2012 at 3:36 am #

    I am hoping it gets easier the more I do it. Thank you for your encouragement. Blessings!

  38. Wendy November 3, 2012 at 3:37 am #

    Thank you Rach! Blessings!

  39. Wendy November 3, 2012 at 3:37 am #

    so glad to have you visit Liz! You are so right…I need to depend on Him through it. Blessings!

  40. Wendy November 3, 2012 at 3:38 am #

    Thanks friend! Love ya! Blessings!

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